
Step by step I'm drawing up a book where I will make mistakes and errors, because I'm not perfect.
writing is safer, somehow
because my pen cannot stutter like my lips do,
and words get stuck in throats,
not fingertips, can’t stumble
on paper trails of blue lines
because writing is definite and clear
and no one can tell if i am crying
or laughing
through written words alone
like
i just want to listen to bands with you
and kiss your face
Why was I naive enough to believe? I created false hope and belief for myself to fall into and every time I would sink deeper. I really am stupid for believing promises still meant what it should mean. I’m stupid to hold onto virtually nothing at the same time desperately creating such hope for myself to grasp onto. I just wish I realised this earlier so it would not have hurt so much this second time..
“Earlier the pain, the quicker you recover”
uoa:
do you ever just get mad because you’re spending your only teenage years feeling like you want to jump off a cliff while other people are having the time of their lives and being in love and just being good at things and you’re just kind of there